Gary's POV
"Do you want another coffee Mark?" I walked to the coffee maker in the hotel and poured a strong black into my mug. "Naah... i think i'm sobering up... slight head ache but it will go." Mark shrugged his shoulders pressing the side of his hand gently against his forehead. "Alright.." I sat on the other sofa beside the window and sipped from my mug. "Gaz...?" Mark looked at me. "Uh huh..?" To be honest i'm not in the mood to talk about my feelings again if that's what he's going to ask. "Where did you go when i was asleep? I heard you leave... did you bump into Robbie?" He raised his eyebrow at me. I decided not to answer that. The past few days all i've done is answer questions. "Gaz... i'm talking to you." Mark turned around to face me. Great eye contact the thing i hate the most when i'm trying to avoid stuff. "I just went for a walk Mark.. that's all..." God can't i go for a walk without being questioned now? "Oh... so you happen to come back with something then?" Mark seemed to get a bit annoyed with me. "Eh? Mark you're drunk go back to sleep." I washed my empty mug and went to walk into my room. "Hold it Barlow." Mark stood up. "Explain..." He showed me some shorts and a pair of boxers. Shit.. he's caught me. "I...errh.." I swallowed hard. "They're Rob's...aren't they?" Mark sighed softly placing them back on the sofa. "Maybe.." It was wrong to do i know. "Why Gaz..? This isn't Robbie's fault.. he doesn't even know.." I felt Mark softly place his hand on my back. "I..I know... it was just... i saw them.. having sex in the sea.. and she looked at me.." Don't cry Gary... be a man... i gritted my teeth to hold the tears in. "Maybe she didn't know it was you.." Mark continued to stroke my back whilst i carried on telling him. "Maybe not.. they were quite far out.. Then they both swam off somewhere... so i went to leave the beach... and saw their clothes.. i was angry Mark.." A few tears escaped my eyes. "It's okay mate..." I felt Mark's arms wrap around me gently. "I love her Mark... i really do.. urgh.. i hate my feelings sometimes they're always for the wrong people." I wiped my eyes on my shirt. "She led you on Gaz.. this isn't all your fault." He's right.. but still i feel i'm to blame i have a voice i should of said no, but i love her. "Have you seen them yet?" Trying to change the subject a bit. "Yes.. i had a drink with them." Mark smiled a little. "You did?" He never said. Maybe not to upset me.. "Yeah.. Robbie was all happy about seeing me.. the baby and the engagement." Ouch... hearing that kinda hurt. Oh stop over thinking Gary you're just gonna keep upsetting yourself! I took a deep breath. "The baby... how's it doing?" I bit my lip a little. "Good... well Rob says so.. he sent me a few scan photos.." Mark showed me some photos from his phone. "O...Oh...lovely.." Gently i cleared my throat and swallowed. Seeing that shows how beautiful life actually is. I started to sob into my hands uncontrollable. "Gazzz..ssshhh...Everythings going to be okay.. come on mate... please don't cry." Mark held me tight. Comforting me like a friend should.
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