"Gary i...." My heart was beating faster. I got caught up in the moment i didn't mean to. "I've got to go fetch Mark... it's getting late.." Gary shook his head slightly and his voice seemed to go quieter. "O...Okay..." I pulled the duvet further up me feeling stupid and awful again. "I'll see you tomorrow morning... i'll check on Rob...night..." Gary turned the light off and closed the door slightly. What have i done?! Softly i started to cry in my pillow hating myself even more.
Gary's POV
Why did she do that?! I can't believe she would actually do that after everything that has happened this past week! Quickly i got into my car and headed for Robbie's. Confusion filled my head. Things have changed seeing everything her and Robbie are going through i can't be second best. God i can't go through this again i just can't my feelings have changed for her i want to support her and the baby in a friend way. I parked outside Robbie's and waited a few minutes before getting out. If i tell Mark he'll just think that i want this to happen. I opened the front door and walked in. "Gaz?" I heard a voice come from the living room. "Yeah.. i'm here." I smiled softly when i saw Mark. "Hel- Woah... what's wrong with you?!" Mark got up from the sofa. "N...nothing?" Mark's not an idiot he can always sense when things aren't right. "You're as white as a ghost mate... here sit down." He walked me over to one of the sofas and sat me down. "Mark i'm fine..." I shook my head i really don't want to tell him me and Yasmin kissed. He'll be mad at me, because of Robbie. "Stay there i'll make us a coffee...then we can talk." Mark walked off to the kitchen.
Why do things have to be so complicated? I only ever wanted a simple life with the person i love is that too much to ask?! I stood up hoping to try and sneak out of here. Quietly i walked back to the front door. "Hold it Barlow." A voice made me jump. "Huh?!" I flinched a little and turned round. Mark walked from the kitchen carrying two mugs and placed them on the coffee table. "Going somewhere?" Mark raised his eyebrow at me. "erm...i..." I swallowed hard. "Come on... we need to chat.." He walked back into the living room and sat down. "Okay..." Softly i sighed and walked back in. "Drink your coffee Gaz... you don't look very well..." Mark handed me my mug. I sat down on the opposite sofa facing him. My eyes focused on the steam coming from the mug i can't look him in the eye. "Right... what happened... and don't say nothing i wasn't born yesterday... you're only like this when there's something worrying you or when somethings happened... you usually talk for England." Mark smiled softly at me. "Erm..." Don't cry Gary don't... i took a deep breath. I couldn't hold them in any longer, as i felt a few tears roll down my cheeks. "Gaz??" Mark put his mug down and sat beside me resting his hand on my back. "Mate...what is it?" He wiped a few of my tears. "I don't know....i....don't... know what's....w....wrong with me...M...Mark...." I started crying uncontrollable. "Sssshhh..." Mark wrapped his arms around me. "Has Yasmin said something?" He slowly stroked my back trying to calm me. "S....She...k...kissed me..." I trembled a little Robbie's hurt enough i can't bare to do this all again. "Oh...what did you do?" Mark moved his hand off my back and loosened the hug. "P...Pulled...away... i couldn't...couldn't...do it...not again...P...please...believe me... " I haven't cried like this in a long time. Mark has to believe me. "Okay...i believe you Gaz..." Mark sighed softly and wrapped his arms back around me. To be honest i haven't felt this safe in a while since the affair...
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