Chapter 99

"Mark...say something...can you remember that...or was i imagining it...?" I looked at him searching for answers. "...You didn't imagine it...." He sighed softly. Did i just hear that right..? "Oh...." What do i say now... this is really awkward he kissed me on purpose my best mate.. Mark Owen kissed me.  "Just forget it Gaz... i'm sorry..." He got up and tucked him chair under the table. "Where are you going?" I asked a bit more worried than i should. "Erm... i don't know.. the beach... home..." He mumbled. "Home?? Why are you going home?!" I stood up from my chair aswell. He can't go home. "Eh...why not? I feel strange at the minute Gaz..." Mark swallowed still not looking at me. "What do you mean by strange? As in feeling ill?" Slowly i walked over to him. "N...no...confused... embarrassed...scared..." He ran his fingers through his hair again. "Scared....why are you scared Mark? Have i done something wrong? Has all this with Yasmin and Robbie hurt you...i know he's your best mate...but i really am sorry Mark...?" I stroked his shoulder. "Please don't apologise...you've done nothing wrong Gaz..." He looked at me a little. "Please talk to me Mark... tell me your feelings.... tell me why you said finally... and why you kissed me..." Does he like me... as in love me...? "You've.... pretty much said it...." He smiled softly. I thought to myself a little what does he mean? "Mark... what do you mean..? Please tell me mate..." I placed my arm around him showing my support. "Pathetic...really isn't it... best mate... having a crush on his best mate..." A few tears fell down his cheeks. He has a crush on me??? It all adds up... I started to feel a mixture of feeling... confusion... guilt... happiness.... "You're not pathetic Mark... far from it..." I wiped away a few of his tears. "Gary....i...i...erm...i've got to go... sorry.." Mark went to walk out  the door until i grabbed his arm stopping him. "Gary...please let go of me..." He didn't turn round his face still looked towards the door. "Mark look at me!" I raised my voice pulling him towards me. Slowly he turned round still tears falling down his face. "I've ruined...e...everything...our...friendship....for godsake...i'm 41years old....and i'm acting like a child.... being jealous of you and Yasmin....sticking up for you over Robbie...i'm such a twat....i'm sorry Gary... Please...forgive me.. " He sobbed breathing faster. I couldn't think straight i just wanted him to stop talking and upsetting himself. Without thinking what i'm doing i pushed my lips against him for a few seconds. This time i left Mark stunned when i pulled away. I looked him in the eyes. He had the most beautiful eyes i'd ever seen... i've never noticed how beautiful they were... deep blue...I felt flutters in my stomach... the happiness started to take over again causing me to kiss him again. This time longer. Mark wrapped his arms around the back of my neck during the kiss.  My stomach was doing flips. I've never felt this feeling before. It felt good...it felt natural... even if it was maybe wrong... i didn't want this kiss to end...  "Wow..." Mark whispered against my lips.